first semester down
My first semester of college pushed me to grow in ways I didn’t anticipate. I’ve always viewed myself as incredibly independent and planned on going to college in New York City since freshman year, so I thought moving two hours away from home to Tulsa would be a breeze. I also thought I had done enough Figuring Out Who I Am in high school to last me, but I figured out that’s something that’s never going to ease up.
I also didn’t realize how much I had relied on the comforts of my home environment throughout high school and the rest of growing up. Everyone at Tulsa is sick of hearing me praise Fayetteville, but I’ll never stop! It’s a wonderful, beautiful place full of passionate, creative, kind people, and I know I wouldn’t be who I am without it.
When I got to college, I was without all of these comforts, and I started floundering. I blamed things on my surroundings, saying college wasn’t what I expected, when in reality, I was the one lacking the skills needed to adapt. This lasted until about the beginning of October, when I forced myself to stop being a baby and examine all of the things I love about where I am now, which are so many!
Going into college, I was on the line about doing Greek life, but now I’m sure that rushing was the best decision I could have made. It sounds so cheesy to say, but I’ve found my home with my sorority, Chi Omega. At my school, Greek life is pretty small so there are only about 60 girls in our whole house, about 15 per pledge class, which is the perfect size. I knew everyone in house by the end of September, and it’s so comforting to have a whole house of friends to go to whenever I need it. It’s been the most supportive environment because of the emphasis on academics, campus involvement, and sisterhood. So I always feel supported and like I can have fun with the other girls, but I also know everyone is dedicated to doing their best in all areas of life.
I’ve done my share of College Things since August. Labor Day weekend, I got my nose pierced. In November, my roommate and I cut my hair at midnight on a Tuesday. There have been lots of late nights and laughing with new friends, and I’ve eaten lots of fast food to avoid the caf, gaining a sizable portion of the Freshman 15.
I’ve tried to explore Tulsa when I can, but I’m typically busy on campus. I’ve found lots of coffee shops like Coffee House on Cherry Street, Fair Fellow, and Shades of Brown. The Philbrook is a lovely art museum, and I plan on making it to the Gilgrease next semester. The best benefit of living in a larger city has been the concerts because I’ve made it to a number of great shows this semester-- Two Door Cinema Club, LANY, Bleachers, and the Revivalists.
Like I expected, being “on my own” helped me solidify who I am as an individual. While I did undergo my fair share of identity crises over the past four months, I’m ultimately more sure of things I knew beforehand. I’m even more confident in my major choice (doubling in English and Creative Writing) after my first semester classes and getting over the initial fear of writing college papers. I know I value giving my best effort to what I do but also taking time to stay creatively inspired. I care about genuine relationships with people where we encourage each other to be our best selves.
While I’m so excited to spend break in my comfy queen bed and have home cooked meals and time with my pets and family, I also can’t wait to see what the rest of college holds for me!